January 7th, 2023
My immortal beloved, by d.s.l

One week after you left

a friend had came to me

She asked if it was healthy 

to be talking to the dead

 

The thought to console me 

To pick up my life and move on from my mess

She tried to give me peace 

Offering up her own view of happiness

 

I was told to stop buying your favourite cookies

Or find you again within me

That you didn’t care if I bleach my hair

Or keep your photos in my drawers 

 

Somewhere in my sorrow 

I became lost in resentment

The thoughts to find myself

By forgetting you 

 

But I can’t blame her

For she does not know

That you never left me 

 

You are still standing there

Within my memories

Blocking the door camera 

As you stood waiting for me

 

In your blue dress you are so beautiful

With dark straight hair and dark deep eyes

You smile as I walk up 

And lead my hand inside

 

In my dreams I still see you

Together in your little bedroom 

I would work at your desk

As you look at me behind your phone  

 

How can a friend ever know

My lover never let me go

That she’s still my girl 

That I never let her go 

 

My lover is still here 

Even only in dreams and memories

One day I may be better 

But that’s where only we will go